i cannot express how happy I am to be back writing stuff like this. I truly am so happy...
there are lots, and i mean lots of things that have happened to me over the past two weeks since i write the last post, i guess?? but yeah, post-october has really been one of the most boredom-filled—no, not even just boring months, more like a "pain in the ass" month...
I SWEAR, WORD TO MY MOTHER, i really am tired of teaching and meeting students. and i have a justified reason for that. first and foremost, let's talk about repetitiveness. dawg, you might find me funny or maybe freaky in a friendly way, but no, i’m really not into repetitive things. what i mean is, i really don’t like meeting students over and over and over again. from day one, i haven’t enjoyed teaching because it’s not my passion. i would much rather be a research analyst or even an archaeologist, presenting my work to an audience in a lecture hall, than teaching and meeting students. i really do hate it so much. it’s not that i despise kids or anything like that, but i’m just not the kind of person who wants to see the same type of people every SINGLE FUCKING day. NO, BRO. :(
i cannot wait until this internship is done... and just so you know, ever since i started this internship, bad things keep happening to me.
for example, i got in an accident because the road was slippery. twice, actually. that’s the first thing. second, this laptop is giving me trouble,
though thankfully, it's just minor stuff. and third, when i tried to update packages on this site, i kept getting distracted by the error ReactHydrationError.
i’ll never update packages here again, because this site is just meant to archive my feelings, honestly...
i’ve made a sort of plan for next year, and i hope Father in heaven is with me, as always. by far, 2024 feels just as depressing as 2023. i really hope my mental state improves because i haven’t felt true happiness this year. sure, i do some funny stuff to try to make myself or others happy, but honestly, i haven’t been happy at all :(
