hello
it's 12:39, and here i am, not knowing what should i write :(
it has been two weeks since I last wrote about my high school life. a period that you and i both know has been nothing short of miserable and sorrowful. just so you know that i had actually intended to do this last night. unfortunately, github was being ass until this very moment as I compose this entry. it wouldn't allow me to preview my blog. however, after making a commit to see the results, to my relief, the quality of my note here hasn't deteriorated, in fact, it has brightened my day, at least for now :)
so, archangel, what have you been doing for the past two weeks since you finished writing the last post?
well, as for two weeks ago, i actually engaged in a series of preparations. by "preparations" i mean i've embarked on my 5th semester in college. unfortunately, it's a bit of a drag since it signifies the transition into my final senior year. the phase brings me closer to graduation and the daunting prospect of being jobless, which happens to be one of my greatest concerns :(
owh, that's sad, by the way, what's your plan after graduated?
well, since you ask about my plan, i would say: "i aspire to depart from my homeland as swiftly as possible." in fact, i'm fervently yearning for it at this very moment. it's not that i don't like my country. no, not at all. but rather, it's the unfortunate reality of numerous rodents occupying the seats of the parliament building, not to mention the society's continuous descent into a state of worsening affairs. this nauseates me and erodes any remaining attachment i had towards continuing my life in this beleaguered nation. i mean, you're talking about the theft of 350 million records by some hacker, all of which are then peddled in the black market, or the exposure and subsequent sale of 34 million passport records, it truly makes me sick about this incompetence. it intensifies my desire to depart from this country at the earliest opportunity and even contemplate relinquishing my citizenship. i don't know, either scholarship, or working. for me, witnessing the data being laid bare in some obscure market is deeply unsettling. it's not just about me, it extends to my father, my mom, my siblings, and even my extended family, ALL BECOMING TARGETS. While the magnitude of 350 million personal records is undoubtedly massive and significant, as a citizen, I find myself left with little recourse other than to come to terms with the government's apparent ineptitude and learn to coexist with this unfortunate reality :(
i don't know bro. i don't know. i wanna leave :(
maybe someday in the future ;(