considering me as part of gen z, i genuinely hope that each one of us can succeed in life, especially when it involves our connections, such as friendships for example. yet, we must also confront the unyielding realities of life's challenges and the potential harshness of fate, which can be altered through personal determination. i do believe that, we, as humans, we have inherited some of the old, appalling, and destructive behaviors collectively, and yes, I'm referring to being labeled.
it all begins in 2018, exactly 5 years ago
i must confess that high school wasn't the most enjoyable phase of my life, and i didn't find merit in every aspect of it. the version of myself in 2018 was vastly different from who i am in 2023. during that time, i was somewhat hyperactive, and unfortunately, i was often labeled as stupid, finding myself ranked at the bottom of my class for three long years. this designation was partly due to my struggle to comprehend certain math problems presented by an unaccommodating teacher. i sincerely emphasize that this particular teacher exhibited a profound lack of concern for her students understanding and seemed solely focused on her remuneration. it is essential to realize that not all students can effortlessly grasp every aspect of a subject that may ultimately prove of little relevance in their collegiate or professional pursuits. this was quite disheartening for me. while i don't harbor extreme resentment, i am rather disappointed by the quality of her teaching :(
in my current college experience, not a single aspect of her teachings has proven applicable to the coursework at hand. it is indeed regrettable and disheartening that she imparted knowledge that appears to serve no practical purpose for many students, neither in their college nor professional lives. is it not disconcerting to teach something that may remain useless to a significant portion of students as they progress through higher education or enter the workforce?
"kind of ironic, you know..."
and also, not only was my lack of proficiency in math a contributing factor to my perception of high school as less than ideal, but also the overall environment played a significant role. while i acknowledge that some of the labeling i experienced was influenced by my own actions, there were other external factors that contributed as well. for instance, the seemingly unrealistic notion of being consistently late to school due to traffic jams was rather frustrating. additionally, i was often labeled as 'freak' simply because i preferred minding my own business, cherishing moments of tranquility, and finding amusement in boundless ideas that could challenge the norms of high school life. to me, the answer seems evident: yes, it is plausible that these factors contributed to my sentiments about high school
"*you're austistic, you should be placed in mental ward where all you weirdos fucks belong...*"
that statement above reflects hurtful words directed at me. and of course, i have choices in responding, either by violence or pursuing success in my career and personal life :)
i've reached the conclusion of my story, and the message I wish to convey is that the best way to seek revenge is by showcasing greater success and happiness. While they might feel envious or upset about your achievements, but the important thing is that your efforts have paid off. just like NF, the rapper, once said:
"but everything that breaks you down can also build your character. 'cause people love to see you fail, just be aware of it. DON'T LET NOBODY TELL YOU WHO TO BE OR WRITE YOUR NARRATIVE"