so yeah, long story short, it's been a week since my first visit to my brother's high school. there's so much to tell, but most of it is either somewhat fun, sad, or even anxiety inducing. yes, by the time i'm writing this, i truly should consult a psychiatrist. well, perhaps this is my life for the next 4 months. i honestly don't have the spirit for teaching because i'm truly not good at it, not to mention the pressure from my shyness :(
well, i hope i can manage to design my prototype of some sort of ai teaching class with history as the subject while i'm still on that school. in short, i hope i have enough time left to secure perceptions, opinions, basically a survey, so i can graduate next year and actually pursue my next studies abroad. like for real, i want to escape, get the hell out from this godforsaken country as soon as i got a chance. i truly am feeling not same living in this country anymore, as october should be the next president's alongside with his vice president inauguration. For real, I want to escape, get the hell out of this godforsaken country as soon as I get the chance. I truly don't feel the same living here anymore, especially with the presidential and vice-presidential inauguration coming up in October. As a trained historian, I know very well about these two individuals' criminal records—one is a mass murderer who still hasn't been prosecuted for what he did in the '90s, and the other is an illegitimate product of the constitution. Yeah, he's the son of the previous president, who served as a mayor, and in less than two years, he got promoted to vice president and actually win the election
- it's not even a secret anymore:
and that's for the murderer who became an elected president. as for his vice, it's very well documented on the internet. you can look it up yourself :)
that's it
i don't consider myself an intellectual either, but man, i imagine myself living abroad, and for the first time, i can actually feel peace and true happiness. there was a time when i read an article about a lost generation of intellectuals from the '60s whose citizenships were revoked, and the next thing you know, they're stateless, with nowhere else to go but to submit to a new citizenship in the country where they previously studied. tragic, right?
i did not manage to see the film, but i hope the director will change her mind at some point in the future (although unlikely) to make the film accessible to the public again because i really missed the chance :(